Personal Bubble: Transition to a new chapter

Well, I do have a lot to blog about. Topics has been popping out in my head for the past weeks, I just have yet to find the time, energy and sometimes just sheer laziness to sit down and blog. But I really want to put this down before next week begin. Actually, it's not so special anymore since I've already started, but hey, it is supposed to be official on the 2oth of April 2009. See, that's when a new chapter begins. That's when I leave the double lives I have been having the past few years and just focus on one thing, work. Not to say I won't be back at it again when I do decide to further study. So the idea of this post is that I want to record how I have been feeling towards this... new beginning.

For one, it's a definate relieve when I got that offer. I have been worrying about it and the market has not been wonderful. The people I spoke it often prefers experienced employee and my experiences are very limited indeed. The part time work I;ve got were fun at the beginning but the excitement quickly wear off and I'm began to look at them just as something for self-sustaining. One was laboratory cleaning and the other was pamphlet distribution. One of the things I learnt from them is that I do not want to work labour jobs. They are easy and good money but it's hell boring and tiring. I could feel my brain turning into mush.

I've got the butterflies. It's really nail biting that I'm not a student anymore and I am expected to behave like an adult. It's not that I have been behaving like a brat all the time, but it just leaves no room for mistakes. If I do, I can't have it as, " Oh well, it doesn't matter since I am just a student anyway," I will not have one month break and all. It's all so exciting and at the same time nerve wrecking. I'm begining anew. It's like the first day I got my driver's license; I got freedom!... but what if I crash?

I'm not sure if this step is the right one too. What if there's a better one out there? What if I don't like research? Maybe I should have looked for others first. Maybe I should have started with commercial. I really do not know if this is what I really want. The market is difficult out there, and I'm glad that I've landed myself a job. I'm just not too sure if this is what I want.

I still do not know how much I will get paid. HAH!

Besides being a confused lamb, I actually made food from scratch with the some time in hands. Below are pictures of the food I made these couple of weeks. I am pretty proud of myself.

Tong Yuen with red bean paste